Stitching My Stakes, Stitching Mistakes: A Poem

I stitch sometimes like my life is at stake,

because you’re only as loud as the things that you make.

We learn our history,

Imbued with misery,

Some thobes, a mystery.

But silence is violence

We must speak

We must do

We must be true

To ourselves

To our fight

But mostly, ourselves.

We stitch

As if, when we don’t we’ve made a mistake

Yet, our stitches embody what we can take

And what we stitch, we cannot take

With us

We leave behind our embroidery

To our children

Return to the earth

And to Allah

We tell our stories

We stitch our stories

We code our stories

We live

We are alive in our thobe

Our life is woven in each stitch

Each breath

Thread

Beads

Coins.

Please tell my story when I am

Gone.

Don’t forget I bore children in this thobe

I raised children in this thobe

A whole life lived here

Besides mine

Don’t forget us

When we are long gone

And you have the fabric of our lives

Our stories in fabric

And your microscope

And your heart

Tell my story

I lived in this thobe

My children remember their childhood

With me in this thobe.

I loved in this thobe

I still live in the memories of this thobe.

The thobe you have

Now.

Do not hush me

Do not rush me

Do your research

And then, tell them all.

How I loved.

How I lived.

In that dress.

How my life is told in that dress.

And the dress, well, she will never forget me.